Get Rid Of Fear Once And For All

Tomorrow will mark the very first time in my life where I’ll be taking a serious risk. Most of me is ecstatic. Part of me is terrified. It’s this one terrified part of me that I’m trying to kill.

Six months ago I made a promise to myself. After submitting a written proposal to my employer asking for a raise, I gave myself a personal deadline. At the end of six months, I will either:

  1. Receive a raise, or
  2. Quit my job and move out of state.

My proposal more or less argued that I had been working outside of my job description for two years, and was being grossly underpaid for the amount of work I was doing. Although my letter was acknowledged and my hard work commended, I quickly learned that my request for a raise was not going to be honored.

Well aware that my time left with this organization was limited, I began taking the steps necessary to “reboot” my life. It was time to start over.

The process of rebooting my life is practically complete. Over the last six months, I have:

  • Sold, donated, or thrown away everything I cannot take with me.
  • Established new living arrangements in Michigan with the help of my girlfriend Cassie.
  • Put in my final two weeks at the last job I ever want to have.

My apartment has been emptied, my car is packed, and all that remains left to do is drive from New Jersey to Michigan. I have no clue whether or not this will work out or not — but I’m doing it tomorrow.

Now is the time to do it. I’m young, I’m not paying a mortgage, I have no children or anything else binding me in place.

I’m gonna go live a little.

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7 Responses to “Get Rid Of Fear Once And For All”

#1 story on 04, Apr, 2007 at 10:54 pm

Pssst. . . congratulations on your leap of faith. You’re already a writer. You always have been.

#2 Mary on 09, Apr, 2007 at 3:30 pm

I believe in your dream! Make it so!!!!! love Ya Shaun

#3 MS on 29, Jul, 2007 at 3:38 pm

you got out of NJ…good on you mate.. I hated living there….

aint mothin but heartless pharma companies, well-off right-wing more-republican-than-southern folk immigrants who work in those companies, for-the-most-part cold selfish people, bad weather with lots of driving (loved the hilly wooded roads though, in parts), and overall suckiness with nothin to do and nowhere to go.

Yes I am not being politically correct, I know. But I know I am correct nonetheless.

#4 linda on 28, May, 2009 at 3:52 pm

WOW! I can so relate to you. How are you? Thanks for the information.

#5 Ket on 21, Aug, 2009 at 2:50 pm

Good for you. Yup indeed it takes courage to invent yourself, i definatelly don’t have it yet:(

#6 Maddi on 18, Mar, 2010 at 5:22 pm

Congrats to you! I have one thing tying me to the area I’m in now. But that one thing will be gone early next year, so that’s when I intend to do something similar to what you have done. I hope it all works out alright.

#7 Amber on 21, Nov, 2012 at 1:28 pm

I’m trying to move to Portland, OR from Ohio. It’s a huge move and the fear is overwhelming. I have nothing tying me here indefinetly and this area has pretty much sucked the life out of me. When did it click? When did the realization that life is more than broke down bars and locals? When did you let go?

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